K.S : My new music release after 18 years! The last time I was promoting a single I was pregnant with my daughter Kaveri!!! Her little teenage friends seem surprised to discover that I sing & I have to remind them that its where she got her talent from after all 🙂
The long gap is not only because I was playing mom which I was doing rather ardently and I have loved every minute of it
But the long gap & my staying away from music (though i expressed myself through other creative avenues like painting and writing) is because I had lost my voice and my confidence completely over the last many years. I never thought I would be able to sing again.
It was a psychological block – an emotional voice paralysis.
Technically/medically my vocal chords were intact but yet I could not sing, When people would ask me to sing I would get severe anxiety like there was a noose around my neck and gradually started avoiding putting myself in such situations completely. Even at family functions where singing songs was a staple part of our lives I used to refuse. Nobody not even me could figure out why
Then three years ago I met my wonderful Guruji Ravi Juleji who coaxed and cajoled my voice back into shape with a lot of love and patience.I remember once at riyaaz he told me very sweetly “I am going to make you Suchitra Krishnamoorthi again. You have forgotten who you are but we lovers of music still remember your voice . Memories of that day still bring a lump in my throat.
My first attempt at singing was in my musical play Drama Queen that opened two years ago. There i wrote the music and lyrics and kept it so simple that I felt confident that I woud sing it even on a bad day with a hoarse throat. It was a big confidence booster and paved the way
My single Sawan Barse happened quite by chance. I was attending a private film screening of a film and a day later one of the music directors of the film Surya Vishwakarma started sending me direct messages on facebook saying he was a fan of my voice & its his dream to record a song with me. Though rather flattered I ignored him for weeks but then when he was persistent, I put my fear aside and said why not lets do it. We recorded the song in a few hours & i played it to some of my friends from the music business to get a feedback on how my
voice was sounding after so many years. Atul Churamani whos musical acumen i trust completely and has always been urging me to return to music over the years liked it & insisted I make a
So i then asked the super talented young director Karan L Butani to come on board and he conceptualized and directed a beautiful video for me.
The concept of the video is “return to innocence* It is about
reclaiming your essence, reclaiming the purity of childhood ,
reclaiming the love we owe ourselves.
I am excited for this release and already recording a few more songs with some very talented musicians. The music business is very different from when i left it but is more vibrant more flexible and much more fun. Everything is good & its getting better . Tra la la la la 🙂
PS – I will continue to do all the things I enjoy doing so please dont ask me ” SO no more painting? No more soap and candle making? No more acting? 🙂🙂🙂 I intend to do it all 😋😋